anxiety

Yesterday, I started spotting. Dark brown. Not a lot, but some. No unusual cramping. I called Dr. H's office and got a nice, reassuring nurse who said it's not the end of the world, or even unusual. I guess sometimes, the old blood from whenever (maybe the transfer) decides to come out. She said my numbers were beautiful, high even (and mentioned that freaky freaky word: twins), so she thought it was nothing to worry about. I also had a raging yeast infection, so we figured out what I could do for that (monistat 3). She said that I should take to bed rest, anyway, so I spent my Sunday (mostly) on the couch.

I got up feeling chipper and less itchy and nothing when I wiped except monistat. I had grand plans to ride in, work out, and have a normal Monday. But then, later I peed and there was more spotting. Not bright red, not brown, but pink. Not a lot, but some. I decided not to ride, or work out, but went into work anyway.

I've spend the day back-and-forth to the bathroom, checking and checking. There's still some, not bright red, not a lot. I'm counting the minutes until I can escape, go home, and back on the couch.


I started feeling nauseated today. Not sure if it's the dreaded "morning" sickness or just anxiety.